Ever been fired? Pretty disheartening isn't it? Makes you feel like you're less than worthy. Sometimes we take a new job and a new path because we think it's going to be different. Eventually it all ends up the same. We sit at a desk day after day thinking this time it will bring us closer to what we think is right for our lives. The truth is, we'll never know the exact path God wants for us. We have to be the ones who trust our intuitions and do what we think is right. If you're anything like me you've tried several different industries and haven't had any luck yet. I've been in multiple sales jobs, mortgage, life insurance, copiers, you name it. The only thing that has been consistent and has had a lasting affect on my life has been the restaurant industry. It's the same every shift, you know what to expect, you make your money and you go home. And the best part is, you get to feed people. The hours aren't the most amazing thing, but hey, beggars can't be choosers right? I spent a few months at this last job. It didn't take me long to realize it wasn't for me. The day I was let go, I had already mentally given myself two weeks to make a decision and have that dreaded conversation to leave. Sometimes it's not about the job, it's that we get attached. We get attached to people and we make them a part of our family. A friend of mine sent me this quote the other day and it really put things into perspective for me. "Soon you'll realize that many people will love the idea of you but will lack the maturity to handle the reality of you." Do you ever think that maybe God pulled you out of a situation because you were too good for it? You guys, our reward is in heaven, not on this earth, not in this life. Our reward isn't with a job. We spend so much time trying to please other people but for what? They aren't our creator, our father, our savior. Sometimes it's easier said than done. I felt so defeated after that conversation. I felt abandoned and betrayed. I was promised so many things and I really felt like I had done my best, but the thing is, it wasn't for me. It wasn't meant to be. If it had been then things would obviously feel a lot different right now. I've spent the past two weeks realizing that running away from things doesn't always make them better. I literally came right back to the exact spot I was in. This time I have a much clearer perspective but regardless, it's the exact same spot. It makes me feel even more like a failure that I had to go backwards. It's not a good feeling, getting fired. I keep trying to tell myself that I'm okay but I'm really not. Why is it that when everything seems to be going wrong, we act like everything alright? What about that seems okay? Well, truthfully none of it is. We are all on this rollercoaster of life together. We're all sinners. We're all children of the one true King. When will we realize that even in the depths of despair hope can be found? Psalms 145:13 says "The Lord is trustworthy in all he promises and faithful in all he does." It's time for us to realize that true strength comes from going backwards sometimes. It's okay to get fired. It's okay to start over. It's okay to try again. We only need to know that we are Worthy of doing so.