Yep, you read that right, I got laid off. Getting laid off isn't anything I'd wish on anyone. Certainly not a mom to be in her third trimester. I kept racking my brain thinking how could this happen? How could this be? What did I do to deserve this? Why NOW? It felt frustrating. It felt like betrayal. We had a plan. We had our ducks in a row and we were doing such a good job of following our plan, getting ready for baby girl to join us in June. The last thing we expected was for me to get laid off right before having the baby/ maternity leave started.
God has a plan.
I didn't want to believe it was real, but it hit me so hard. And it wasn't like it hit me once, nope, over and over again every day for 4 days in a row it hit me. During my one hour lunch break on nice days, I like to walk around downtown, get my steps in, and get some fresh air. I cried on every walk. I just didn't understand why this happened when it did. Again, thoughts like how could this be? We had worked so hard to get to where we were. It really felt like financial freedom was right around the corner and then....BOOM. Like a bus, it hit, and it hurt.
Luckily, this was a lay off and not a you're fired type of deal. The job is dependent upon a government contract that just wasn't funding the way it was expected to. The good news is that another contract was won, so prayfully, this will be temporary.
When the going gets though, you have to just keep persevering. Sometimes we have no choice. Everyone keeps telling me to relax in my third trimester, but it's just not who I am. I want to work. I want to make an income. I want to grow our businesses so that we can provide for our kids. I have a fire within me that God has placed and I will never give that up.
I have been racking my brain on how to get that income back into my life and I fully trust God and what he is doing in our lives right now. Every season has a purpose. Every doubt can be turned into faith. Yes, it is an uncertain time, but God doesn't send us into darkness for no reason.
I'm excited to see what is in store for our family. Less than 8 weeks to go until we meet our little girl!
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