Let me just say, it's pretty to wild to think that I'm actually THIRTY years old. How the heck did I get here so fast? There were some years that I just wanted life to pass me by so I could get to the good stuff and past the bad. I mean, who doesn't want to just jump to the good stuff? Wouldn't that be nice? I know I'm not alone in thinking YES. (Please and thanks). It's insane how fast the twenties decade goes by. I remember being a kid, dying to be 16 so I could drive far far away. And then I remember being in high school and just itching to be in college so I could do whatever I wanted, for once and for all. And then of course I remember being in college wishing I could go back and do it all over again so that I could be in a different place. And then there was my twenties. The beginning of which I spent buck wild, drinking way too much and not caring enough. Again, wishing I could take those times back. So here I am, thirty years old, living the life I never thought I would have. I have a wonderful job where I make great money and enjoy what I do. I have a beautiful family that I couldn't be more thankful for. That includes my boyfriend and his awesome two boys. At our house, life is fun. We eat, laugh, try to remember to say grace, and try to have the most fun we can while we're together. And I have a precious baby girl on the way, something I thought wouldn't happen for years to come.
Is this a dream?
I never thought I'd get here, to this place where God has blessed me with so much more than I deserve. All those years I spent wanting to be someone else, wanting to be somewhere else, with a completely different life. And now here I am, on my feet, in the right direction, making my dreams come true. What's the most wild about this ride is how everything fits together so well. Especially my relationship with Ri, we're better than ever and I think God had the biggest hand in that. We've been together for almost FIVE years now which is CRAZY and amazing (blog post coming on what it's like to date for 5 years soon). Our relationship has changed and blossomed SO much over the last five years. We spend time trying to understand each other and I think that plays a huge roll in how well we get along now. Don't get it twisted here, I definitely still push the trash down into the can, throw stuff away, and move stuff I shouldn't, however the make up is so much faster now and that I am extremely thankful for. It has a lot to do with support and compromise. When you love someone you better understand where they're coming from, and in those "that must have been a subconscious move" times, you're much more aware of how to react.
Thirty is quite obviously going to be the best year ever. If you're out there wanting to be someone else, or wanting to live a different life, remember life is what you make it. If you want to travel, go travel, don't let anyone hold you back. I'll never regret that trip I booked to Hawaii alone to go see a bff of mine. I booked it, didn't tell a soul, and one week later was on a 14 hour flight across the country. It was SO fun, carefree, adventurous, and exciting. Sometimes you just have to shut everything off and get away, and that's perfectly normal in your twenties. There are so many expectations from others. I never finished college. I tried and tried, I even went to four different schools but it took me FIVE years to realize it was forced and that it just wasn't for me. Again, perfectly normal and okay. If I could do it all again I would just travel the world for years instead. You can learn so much more from life experiences. When I was 25 I quit my job on a whim, moved back home for Christmas, then moved to Virginia the day before New Years Eve, only knowing my sister and her husband. Let me tell you, life changing.
The point is, you shouldn't let anyone or anything hold you back in life. Get out of your own way. I 100% believe that you should leave your hometown, a lot of people don't feel this way. But in my experience, it was the best move I could've made. I've learned so much being away from what's familiar and safe. And if you just love your hometown so much you don't want to leave, at least move somewhere else before you settle down there. If you want to do certain things, get out there and do them. You should live FULLY in your twenties. And about all those expectations, forget them. It's your life. You don't have to get married in your twenties. You don't have to buy a house in your twenties. You don't have to have babies in your twenties. You just have to live f u l l y and without the worry of others. You never know what the future holds, but I can promise you God wants you to live fully. xo