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What it was like getting laid off in my third trimester

      Yep, you read that right, I got laid off. Getting laid off isn't anything I'd wish on anyone. Certainly not a mom to be in her third trimester. I kept racking my brain thinking how could this happen? How could this be? What did I do to deserve this? Why NOW? It felt frustrating. It felt like betrayal. We had a plan. We had our ducks in a row and we were doing such a good job of following our plan, getting ready for baby girl to join us in June. The last thing we expected was for me to get laid off right before having the baby/ maternity leave started.  God has a plan.  I didn't want...

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Thirty, Flirty, and Pregnant!

  Let me just say, it's pretty to wild to think that I'm actually THIRTY years old. How the heck did I get here so fast? There were some years that I just wanted life to pass me by so I could get to the good stuff and past the bad. I mean, who doesn't want to just jump to the good stuff? Wouldn't that be nice? I know I'm not alone in thinking YES. (Please and thanks). It's insane how fast the twenties decade goes by. I remember being a kid, dying to be 16 so I could drive far far away. And then I remember being in high school and just itching to be in college so I...

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Please Cancel my Subscription to your Issues

      I saw this quote the other day and it made me laugh...but then it got me thinking. How often do we subscribe to other peoples problems? We allow others to soak up our days, complaining about their lives and issues. I get that it's easy to subscribe to things. We subscribe to newsletters in our emails, Netflix, Hulu, Amazon Prime, but what about those subscriptions that we'd rather cancel? We can easily make the choice to cancel Netflix to save money, so why can't we cancel subscriptions to the things that leave us feeling empty? I know it's hard to pick friends who only lift you up. I find myself making excuses for people like "Well, she's...

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I'm not a real mom

      "There is something about a girl who dates a guy who has kids." I've heard this saying for years and years now. It's not for everyone. Some people literally avoid it, by not dating people who have kids. Some people judge because of it. It's a choice, and not an easy one I might add. I can imagine that single parents want someone they date to love their kids unconditionally and that may be hard for some people, but not for me. Yes, parenting is hard, especially when you're not the parent. It's even harder when the kids don't see you as a parent figure in their life. I had someone recently say I'm "just the girlfriend."...

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You're Not Alone

    There's this song on Christian radio right now that I adore. Every time I hear it, it fills me up in ways I can't explain. Do you ever hear a song and just know that it's exactly what you needed to hear? I get chill bumps. In the song the lyrics it says "you're never alone." Sometimes that's the only thing you need to hear. It's amazing what three little words can do for your mood. Life is tough. We're all struggling in different ways. Some financially, some with body image, some with being over weight, some with divorce, some with anxiety. The list goes on and on. I personally struggle with feeling like I am unable to...

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