The rollercoaster that taught me to love myself.




"I have given God a million reasons not to love me. None of them changed my mind." -anonymous 



Just last year, I was a mess. And by just last year I mean every year before that too, don't get it twisted. I was always fighting with my boyfriend, always fighting with family. I was extremely unhappy in my job. My finances were a mess, I felt like I could never get my bank account out of the red. I was living paycheck to paycheck....with several jobs.  I was overweight, and had no hopes of losing it, either. I had lost hope in myself. Anxiety pretty ruled most of my life. I had hardly any motivation. I was down in the dumps. I cried a few times a week. Each day I thought, today will be the day that I do something that changes me. I'll find myself somehow. I'll go somewhere and figure it out. I'll get a job I like, I'll make my boyfriend happy, I'll make my family proud. Somehow I'll get out of this rut. The truth is, I didn't love myself. I didn't love my body. I didn't love my life. I didn't love my job. I didn't love me and I could never really figure out why. I had someone who loved me but why didn't I love me? I had a great life, so why wasn't I as happy as I should be? Why wasn't I smiling like everyone else?

If you don't feel curious about faith after this I'll be shocked. 

Y'all, something clicked. You are Worthy Lifestyle brought me to LIFE. I wanted to run away and never look back. I had so many sad thoughts. I never got it. Why aren't I as happy as I portray myself to be? What's wrong with me? Have I done something to deserve this? I never really could quite put my finger on it. I feel like I spent a lot of my life complaining about things I (thought) had no control over. Even though I knew there had to be something I could do about it. My other half, Rialand, continued to tell me to stop making excuses and do something about it. And you know what? I finally did. And it's been a year since that. One incredibly rollercoaster filled year. Life is a whirlwind, if you think you're comfortable, buckle up, because God always has something new for you around the corner. 

 It took me getting mistreated and fired from a job I thought I liked, surrounded by Christians who I thought were there to support me and have my back, for me to realize I had to make a change. This is when I launched You are Worthy. I had the idea for years but I wasn't sure what to do much less how to start. I put every bit of my heart into this company. And God has blessed me immensely through it. I have met some incredible entrepreneurs and I couldn't be more thankful I finally took that leap. I created the website all by myself, I hired a graphic designer to create my logo, I figured out which products I loved, that I thought you would too, I made my company an LLC and I gave up my excuses. I didn't hire a business coach, I didn't invest thousands of dollars, I just began. And you know what? Beginning is exactly what God called me to do. 

Here I am a year later, in a full time job with benefits that I thought I'd never see, with a paycheck I never believed was possible, a happy relationship, a healthy lifestyle, and a baby on the way. These are things I never ever thought would happen, but God showed me the way. Life may be rough, it may suck, it may feel terrible some days, but I promise it will get better. If I can do it, why can't you?

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