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2020, a year WITHOUT resolutions

  Yada yada...new year, same me. Each year of my adult life I told myself January 1 was my deadline. That one date that I thought of all year long. I would make a list of 50 bajillion things I needed to accomplish and when I didn't, I'd mentally punish myself for not hitting my goals and getting "further" in life. What a load of crap. The media & social media loves to hype up the "new year, new me" thing. The year 2019 was one of the best most challenging years of my life. Because we did SO much in a year, I can't imagine what 2020 will hold for us. We had a baby, I quit my full...

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What the third trimester was like for me!

Welp, as I write this it's actually my past my DUE DATE! I can't believe how fast 40 weeks flew by. Sheesh! I feel like just yesterday I peed on that stick and our lives changed forever. I remember Ri coming down the stairs and me walking out of the bathroom to meet him in the middle just sobbing. I was so nervous. I was so scared. I was terrified at what my family would say. I had NO clue how we were going to bring a baby into our lives. And here we are 40+ weeks later. Time really does go by fast when you're about to have a baby. This entire pregnancy has been the BIGGEST blessing ever....

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What it was like getting laid off in my third trimester

      Yep, you read that right, I got laid off. Getting laid off isn't anything I'd wish on anyone. Certainly not a mom to be in her third trimester. I kept racking my brain thinking how could this happen? How could this be? What did I do to deserve this? Why NOW? It felt frustrating. It felt like betrayal. We had a plan. We had our ducks in a row and we were doing such a good job of following our plan, getting ready for baby girl to join us in June. The last thing we expected was for me to get laid off right before having the baby/ maternity leave started.  God has a plan.  I didn't want...

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Thirty, Flirty, and Pregnant!

  Let me just say, it's pretty to wild to think that I'm actually THIRTY years old. How the heck did I get here so fast? There were some years that I just wanted life to pass me by so I could get to the good stuff and past the bad. I mean, who doesn't want to just jump to the good stuff? Wouldn't that be nice? I know I'm not alone in thinking YES. (Please and thanks). It's insane how fast the twenties decade goes by. I remember being a kid, dying to be 16 so I could drive far far away. And then I remember being in high school and just itching to be in college so I...

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The rollercoaster that taught me to love myself.

      "I have given God a million reasons not to love me. None of them changed my mind." -anonymous      Just last year, I was a mess. And by just last year I mean every year before that too, don't get it twisted. I was always fighting with my boyfriend, always fighting with family. I was extremely unhappy in my job. My finances were a mess, I felt like I could never get my bank account out of the red. I was living paycheck to paycheck....with several jobs.  I was overweight, and had no hopes of losing it, either. I had lost hope in myself. Anxiety pretty ruled most of my life. I had hardly any motivation. I was down...

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